Max and Billie (just ignore, Jenny, will ya)
I’ve gone from straight to bisexual to lesbian (hideous platin blond fauxhawk included) and back to bisexual. And all that just in a couple of years, basically since I turned 20. Well, it turns out I’m not bisexual at all. At least that’s how I’ve come to see it. It’s not that I don’t like that label – if I have to embrace a label at all it’s a pretty ok one. But it just happens to not be enough to describe how I feel. What I feel about people. Who I’m attracted to. How I want to be with others.
Justin Bond (actor, performer)
Bisexual was enough when I was – simply put – into men and women, and then when I was into women and men. But what about my intense liking for sweet gay boys, raunchy bisexual men, for not-quite drag queens, beautiful FTMs, a crossdressing butch or that submissive straight guy who seemed so very vanilla on the first glance? What embraces all that, if I’d have to give it a name? Queer? Omnisexual?
My reality is that I will turn my head when a beautiful femme walks by me on the street just as much as I’ll lust after guys like Adam Lambert or find John Cameron Mitchell as Hedwig incredibly sexy. I rooted for Max and Billie on the L-Word and I Justin Bond and Sophia making out on Shortbus gets me all hot and bothered.
Adam Lambert redifining sexy at the 2009 AMAs.
And I find this… incredibly liberating. To me, it’s all about charisma and genderfuck and having a naughty, creative mind. I can honestly say that I don’t give a damn whether you have a penis or a vagina or a mangina. Boobs, muscles, moustaches. It really doesn’t matter in the choice of my lovers.
I know I’m not the only one who feels like this, and I can only hope that as we evolve the notion of “normal” will be rethought and the term “sexy” will become redefined.
11/28/2009 at 3:10 am
Bing saw Adam’s performance and commented that it was sensational.
I tried to find it online and it is just…nowhere.
It’s hard to figure all of this shit out, isn’t it? I find that I am not attracted to just men or just women. I am attracted to personalities. I like bad boys and smart women. Robert Pattinson makes me feel all trembly and that makes me feel like some silly old cougar. Laura Linney makes me go all sappy inside, but it isn’t really Laura Linney, it is a sort of character that she tends to play really well.
It is hard to figure.
11/28/2009 at 1:54 pm
I guess you don’t have to label youself anything, just be ok with what you feel. There’s so much beauty in the world ^^
11/28/2009 at 8:13 pm
You’re definitely not the only one who feels this way. I’ve travelled from clueless to “in denial” to lesbian to queer in a span of these few years since I have become aware of my sexuality. I believe sexuality is fluid and hence non-categorizable. I like the idea of sexuality spread across a continuum, like gender, instead of being limited to a set of boxes where you have to fit in.
This is consistent with my gender identity as well because in the past year, I’ve come to identify as genderqueer. I never really liked the term ‘lesbian’ for some reason and preferred ‘gay’ instead. It was during last year, I think, that I consciously addressed my attraction towards femme boys, FTMs, MTFs and all shades of genderfuck people out there. The label ‘lesbian’ was starting to feel too restrictive and I abandoned it, along with the gender binary. ‘Queer’ feels so much more like home.